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Monday, August 29, 2005

Confusion.

'Why is the wind blowing over me? It's so cold. So cold. Rain doesn't help. I don't understand why he lied to me like that. I thought he trusted me. I thought our friendship mattered. I suppose I've been wrong. Wow, this wind is cold.

I should have dressed for it. Prepared. But wind is one of those things you can't count on. You never know what it will do. It can scorch me. It can freeze me. Why are things this complex? If my vision were as blurred as my thoughts, I'd be blind. Friendship shouldn't be like wind, blowing around, rustling through the trees of thought. Friendship should be something solid that people can count on.

Brr, this wind is freezing. I knew it would be this way. I had a feeling he would do this to me. He was never sincerely interested in my future. He never really wanted me to get ahead. He promised a lot, but didn't really give what I wanted. He confused me.

I know God is not the author of confusion... I can't sort this all out. I need help. A third party.

Why?? Why would anybody do this?

This wind is COLD! He was so cruel! Or She... I suppose I should say they. They've all done it. Every single one of them, in one way or another. They travel in a crowd. They built me up with a false vision, and secretly blinded me. They've been trying to take me out this entire time, and I couldn't see past their supposedly good intentions! They were so good to me for a little while... But now... Ugh, this wind....

I have to say goodbye to them. I can't continue to visit with them, entertain them, or help them out. I've got to find something solid.

Yeah, I don't need them anymore. I'll write a letter to them tomorrow. A formal goodbye, in the presence of my Father. I just can't have them hurting me like this ever again. My Father will take me out of this biting wind. He'll protect me. All I have to do is say goodbye to my old 'friends'....

They all have different names and traits, but they're all really the same. They're all my secret sins.

So now, I wave goodbye, never to invite them back or let them in my home, no matter how much the beg or plead.

Dear Sins, GoodBye.'



Don't ask. I had to post something, so I made that up real quick-like.

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